Jscrabbler Koh
Sunday, May 13, 2007
「 sunset on 7:18 AM 」
hello world i am feeling freaking emo....arghhhh

Yay i made it to council somehow i am not elated cos the thot that i might really leave debates its quite sad i mean i haVE REALLY BONDED WITH YOU GUYS AT ACJCs, at SMUs and at all the trainings i mean i will hold on to debates as longt as i can i really enjoy it there maybe its cos of one of my goals in sec one to debate and when i was kicked out of the team in sec 2 wellli was just devastated i mean i felt like shit i let myself down i knew i could do it but i just didn't i let myself, my team, my teachers and montfort down in 2004

when i came to CJ i really thought i could have a new start to just start debating again and prove to myself that i really can do it but i failed my team once more during ACJCs i couldn't make time again i was felt like shit the team was awesome if i made time we could have beaten TJ debate gave me a chance to speak out to break out of my comfort zone in such a way i mean i wasn't always the loudspeaker i am today i used to be a overweight introvert boy who always got bullied even today. I never saw myself doing any form of debating or even public speaking since my self esteem out of ten i would have given myself a negative score. "WHAT A LOSER" Thats probably what you think as you read this post and i totally agree with you i am a loser. But then I thank god for a supportive family and great awesome friends..:)

Happy mother's day one and alll!!!!!!!!!!